To love a child that’s not your own?..Impossible.

In southern chin state when a step parent gets involved they almost always don’t want the partners children from a previous marriage. Sometimes they try to kill them. Therefore they run away or are taken by someone to an orphanage.  Orphanges often care the best they can. They have a lot of children to care […]

Feeling close to death..

Waiting in the airport lobby. We suddenly hear huge loud rain. Though as most places here have tin roofs it didn’t worry me much as rain sounds louder everywhere.  ‘It’ll probably be fine, doesn’t look like too much rain’ I told Lawrence. Just then, more rain fell, even harder and wind swept fast and crazy […]

Beloved.. 

I have just written a letter to my baby. Of course he can’t read it today but it is for when he is older. I wrote one last year & will write one each year for him. Inside is full and personal, my hopes for him & mainly just my unconditional love of him. How […]

Collecting love @ 21months 

Today I sorted out my Lions wardrobe. My sister has given me the next stage up, clothes 2-3yrs 😩 He isn’t two till September but is in these clothes now. So I’ve packed up his 12-24 month clothes for her to have for my nephew Leo.  (As an aside, please know that the hope my […]

Dear Daddy ? 

This morning I was up at 3am with my little Lion. When I came back to bed I heard my name called, I’d kept feeling through the day like I heard my name but nobody there. So I wondered, like with Samuel in the night with Eli in 1samuel (bible) , if perhaps it was […]

If today’s not such a ‘Happy’ Easter..

Today is not called ‘Happy Easter’ it is called ‘Easter’, the ‘Happy’ bit is just a greeting..wishing people to be happy today.  I have seen a lovely friend write to please not be wished Happy Easter as 9months ago she lost her precious baby, he so sadly died after bravely battling cancer. He is now […]

A week of Creatives 🎨#40DaysCreative

Creative Thursday  Baked Banana cake with melted chocolate topping & Red Velvet cake. GrowGroup social, loving getting to know this group of fun.  I am reading Matthew 26.26-29 and reflecting on the Last supper. How mad it must have sounded to offer the food & wine as Jesus’ blood & body. Yet what a knowing […]

Expectant for tomorrow.. #40DaysCreative

Today’s creative was play play playing with my little Lion all day. He didn’t nap so I didn’t get time to do anything..but who cares. This day is important. Tomorrow is a big day. God had been building… </a He has held every piece, known every bit and where to place it. He has designed […]

LOVED

There is no reason for me to love my son He’s done nothing for me I do it all- Change nappies, feed & clothe him. I cook and clean and do Yet something stirs within me.. Despite it looking all one way I provide, I care, I protect There is this feeling, a deep unchanging […]

Imagine..

“Imagine if we’d not listened to God..we wouldn’t have our son. Yet can’t imagine life without him” The words of my husband just before he fell asleep. For me a statement like that sends my brain far too wild to then be able to sleep! Yes, gosh imagine if we had said no or ignored […]