The valley of the shadow of death..

I took a pregnancy test, was amazed that it had two lines, came down and announced to Lawrence that he was to be a Daddy for the third time! We couldn’t believe it but were so excited, from that moment we were a family of five now! The next day we gathered my family in […]

Giant-Slaying Time

There is something strangely warming about being awake at 2am feeding baby when there’s rain hitting the window. I love the sound and feel of the rain pattering all over the glass and hearing the wind blow the trees (tree, we have one on the road outside!). I’m not usually up at this time but […]

Breakin’ the ice..

It has been almost a year since I last wrote a blog post. It’s a year ago this month that my friend died and often I’ve written drafts but nothing felt right to post- death can do that I think. Throws things into perspective and makes it hard to get past. The longer I’ve gone […]

Waiting for the flowers to grow…

Three years ago I wrote a blogpost about depression and anxiety. I remember feeling at my lowest point, genuinely worried that I had lost myself and unsure I’d ever be ‘normal’ again. I was unable to speak to anyone except my mum and my husband. As I wrote ‘Elijah Rest‘ blogpost, my Nanan was on […]

Fear and Puddles

My mother-in-law (Anji) is one of the most inspiring, hard working, kind women that I have ever met. She has raised and loved seven children, then went to work in a care home and went from cleaner to manager and just is an absolute trooper! She chose to retire a couple years back, after years […]

If today’s not such a ‘Happy’ Easter..

Today is not called ‘Happy Easter’ it is called ‘Easter’, the ‘Happy’ bit is just a greeting..wishing people to be happy today.  I have seen a lovely friend write to please not be wished Happy Easter as 9months ago she lost her precious baby, he so sadly died after bravely battling cancer. He is now […]

Betrayal..where are you running? 

I said in a previous blogpost that as I slowly read through the Easter story (Matt26) and have days of waiting to carry on reading it awakens me to the wait Jesus endured. He knew what was coming, had to wait, feeling sick for it. Trying to tell His friends who just didn’t understand at all!  […]

‘The Middle’ Monologue (..grab a pillow)

God has spoken to me through many storms in life. While I was in a lot of pain, four months after marriage, my new husband having to dress me and do everything for me. God showed me His Kindness as I have shared in blogposts before. He gave me this nugget of Gold. I am […]

Through the struggle..

Though we struggle and fall and hurt and fail and try again and mess it up and cry and try again and see and risk and hurt and push through and cry for help and try again… We don’t go through it alone. There is one right next to us, capturing it all, never allowing […]

Hard Heart looking for Love ❤️

I’ve not posted for a while. I have a lot of ‘saved drafts’ as I have written a lot, just not stuff worth posting! I can’t be fake, I’m not great at small talky chitchat. That’s why I find the starts & ends of church a bit cringe! Oooh but grab a cuppa & sit […]