Sat, trying not to cry…

I met a lady this week whose daughters had been starved. In Manchester. About 30mins from my home. So when they came to her, after being in different foster care homes, when they finally had a mummy- they would always need to be able to see food. They can’t have cupboards empty or hear someone […]

Handover to my Husband..

Today was the official handover, Loz handed in his notice in January and finished work yesterday. It felt pretty surreal, yet freeing at the same time! So today was the first day in which I was the one going out to work while he stayed home and looked after the kids. This hasn’t been a […]

International Women’s Day- for my daughter

Today is the first International Women’s Day where I have a daughter. I love this day and all the women from history and around us now who get highlighted. It’s made me think- which women inspire me. There are so many famous women I look up to over the years of history. Yet more than […]

Joseph: Sharing Fatherhood with The Almighty

This Advent I have been obsessed with a new man. His name is Joseph, I have known about him for years-yet this year I keep thinking about him all the time! So last night, Christmas Eve at 1am I blurted down all I’d been pondering. This is a monologue style, so poets please don’t expect […]

The most significant day…

Most days Facebook reminds me of something from years ago. Sometimes it’s a cute video or photo and I click on it to take a closer look, to remember and share it. Sometimes it’s a hideous reminder of bad outfit choices, or relationship choices, or just stuff that makes me CRINGE! Often, more often that […]

Giant-Slaying Time

There is something strangely warming about being awake at 2am feeding baby when there’s rain hitting the window. I love the sound and feel of the rain pattering all over the glass and hearing the wind blow the trees (tree, we have one on the road outside!). I’m not usually up at this time but […]

Get uncomfortable..

Last week I went to the funeral of the friend I blogged about a couple weeks ago. The funeral was unlike one I’ve ever been to. There was a wide range of people at it. Some were staff, governors of prison, church-folk she’d met along the way. Most were ex-offenders, mates from inside, from gangs […]

Atmosphere changer..

I was in a mood with my Mum. I can’t remember why (clearly not important) and we hadn’t chatted it out yet. So at dinner, with my husband,  Dad and grandparents all sat round-there was an atmosphere. I’ve always been told I’m an atmosphere changer. When I’m happy-you’ll know about it, sadly it really works […]

‘Nothing has changed’..

Sad, Angry, Desperate, Ashamed, Fearful, Broken, Overwhelmed, Hopeless…these are each words from a short scroll through my newsfeed. The emojis are 😢😞😱😤😪😭😫😡  I am sorry as today wasn’t what I voted, yet seeing these status’ made me start to wonder if I should be fearful, so I had to sit and pray. Amazingly my lion […]

New word..Obedience

A few months ago my car did that annoying thing where the battery ran out, maybe because I didn’t shut the boot properly which left the light on for hours.. Anyway, a wonderful friend came and got it started for me. Then I had to drive around and around while the battery charged. As I […]