“I’VE GROWN…”

This morning I rolled over to the little voice that wakes me up most mornings, there stood next to my bed was his gorgeous face with a beaming smile. “Mummy, it has happened, I really have grown” He can’t wait for the day that I will tilt my head up to see him. I told […]

“So are you the ‘other woman’ or is she?”

This is one of the many interesting (and kind of horrible!) comments I have had over the past ten months. I started leading our church in September 2016 and had a huge surprise in November 2016 that I was a few weeks pregnant! This was a shock and much as it was amazing, if I […]

Breakin’ the ice..

It has been almost a year since I last wrote a blog post. It’s a year ago this month that my friend died and often I’ve written drafts but nothing felt right to post- death can do that I think. Throws things into perspective and makes it hard to get past. The longer I’ve gone […]

Waiting for the flowers to grow…

Three years ago I wrote a blogpost about depression and anxiety. I remember feeling at my lowest point, genuinely worried that I had lost myself and unsure I’d ever be ‘normal’ again. I was unable to speak to anyone except my mum and my husband. As I wrote ‘Elijah Rest‘ blogpost, my Nanan was on […]

Mums..we need the Church!

I want my son to know who he is. I want him to grow up secure. To be a man of integrity who is known for his gentle, kind and compassionate heart, a man of character who is strong and loves justice. I hope and pray he has a passion for the least and the […]

You are the best..

Little thought this morning. I am not very well so my Lion is looking after me. He’s worked hard on making me a tower. His speciality! When he brings it to me he walks steadily, holding it so carefully..with the proudest face on..tongue out. He declares “I made it. Tis for you mummy” It reminds […]

One hard day..

I was back in hospital today. This time with my 2yr old poorly lion. I didn’t handle it as well as I’ve handled everything else!  When my husband, Loz, was sick, he’s had Dengue Fever, caught it in Burma via a stupid mosquito, I was strong. I was tight with God, didn’t lose my head, […]

To love a child that’s not your own?..Impossible.

In southern chin state when a step parent gets involved they almost always don’t want the partners children from a previous marriage. Sometimes they try to kill them. Therefore they run away or are taken by someone to an orphanage.  Orphanges often care the best they can. They have a lot of children to care […]

Feeling close to death..

Waiting in the airport lobby. We suddenly hear huge loud rain. Though as most places here have tin roofs it didn’t worry me much as rain sounds louder everywhere.  ‘It’ll probably be fine, doesn’t look like too much rain’ I told Lawrence. Just then, more rain fell, even harder and wind swept fast and crazy […]

Beloved.. 

I have just written a letter to my baby. Of course he can’t read it today but it is for when he is older. I wrote one last year & will write one each year for him. Inside is full and personal, my hopes for him & mainly just my unconditional love of him. How […]