When the glitter fades..

Sat in a cafe outside a hospital, waiting for the man that I love to undergo a procedure and hoping the results will be fine. I am sure he will be ok, less faith more denial that ‘another’ thing will begin to be a struggle now! We are in a good place after months of […]

Breakin’ the ice..

It has been almost a year since I last wrote a blog post. It’s a year ago this month that my friend died and often I’ve written drafts but nothing felt right to post- death can do that I think. Throws things into perspective and makes it hard to get past. The longer I’ve gone […]

Get uncomfortable..

Last week I went to the funeral of the friend I blogged about a couple weeks ago. The funeral was unlike one I’ve ever been to. There was a wide range of people at it. Some were staff, governors of prison, church-folk she’d met along the way. Most were ex-offenders, mates from inside, from gangs […]

Atmosphere changer..

I was in a mood with my Mum. I can’t remember why (clearly not important) and we hadn’t chatted it out yet. So at dinner, with my husband,  Dad and grandparents all sat round-there was an atmosphere. I’ve always been told I’m an atmosphere changer. When I’m happy-you’ll know about it, sadly it really works […]

‘Nothing has changed’..

Sad, Angry, Desperate, Ashamed, Fearful, Broken, Overwhelmed, Hopeless…these are each words from a short scroll through my newsfeed. The emojis are 😢😞😱😤😪😭😫😡  I am sorry as today wasn’t what I voted, yet seeing these status’ made me start to wonder if I should be fearful, so I had to sit and pray. Amazingly my lion […]

Waiting for the flowers to grow…

Three years ago I wrote a blogpost about depression and anxiety. I remember feeling at my lowest point, genuinely worried that I had lost myself and unsure I’d ever be ‘normal’ again. I was unable to speak to anyone except my mum and my husband. As I wrote ‘Elijah Rest‘ blogpost, my Nanan was on […]

Are we good?

“Is your heart right before God?”  This is the question I heard in the night-before waking in intense pain. I ran to the bathroom as the pain was so great I thought I was dying! Not just because I’m dramatic, I genuinely thought I’d heard this voice because something had gone very wrong within me […]

Faith is growing…

I feel like at the start of this year has been a real ‘new start’. I’ve never been into ‘new years’ and didn’t start the year making any resolutions or grand plans.  I did, however, ask for God to bless me. I asked for this year to be the year of Abundant Blessing. I wrote […]

Lead me beside still waters, Restore my soul..

This morning I was at a bible study, it is so good to be in a season in life where my Monday morning starts with someone else looking after my child while I am challenged and blessed with studying God’s word & chatting about applying it to real life, the highs and lows, with other women. It is so […]

We are Family…

I am writing this feeling rested and just in a good place. I’m taking note of that as I think I can often write out of sadness, confusion or tiredness so its a treat to write feeling…good! That is mainly thanks to my grandparents, they took my gorgeous 2yr old boy this weekend, our first night […]