Walking through miscarriage.. again..

I walked into Lidl & suddenly the masks, the distance, the people, that before had brought me anxiety when shopping, now paled and seemed less huge. I felt like shouting out as I waited for ages in the queue “DO YOU KNOW WHAT I HAVE DONE THIS MORNING” That is the problem with grief, particularly […]

An evening with Danielle Strickland..

I am a part of the UK Women Speakers Collective, a group of female leaders led by Danielle Stickland. We had two days of intensive and incredible training in November 2019. Yesterday was the third Zoom Call with all the women leaders in the group & Danielle shared with us. I posted about this on […]

We know we need TEAM- but how!?

I don’t think I’ve written leadership thoughts here before- but as well as being a Mum, I am the leader of a Church in Manchester, called Ivy Church Sharston, meeting in The Message Trust building, I am in my fourth year and love it! Last week I sat in a room of Church leaders from […]

Comparison Hit

I held her hand, walked her into ‘dance class’ and she bounded off, twirling and jumping and running arms out wide. Wild hair, Mini Mouse joggers and jumper with two year old mess on the sleeves, full of life and expectation for DANCE CLASS! My Poppy stood centre of the room as others were sitting […]

The valley of the shadow of death..

I took a pregnancy test, was amazed that it had two lines, came down and announced to Lawrence that he was to be a Daddy for the third time! We couldn’t believe it but were so excited, from that moment we were a family of five now! The next day we gathered my family in […]

‘Should-be’ Day

Today is a should-be day. A day where, how things are now, isn’t how we hoped they would be. You see, today is the due-date of a baby I would have loved to hold, not my own, but one I would have adored. The hope we have is that I will hold another, yet it […]

Sat, trying not to cry…

I met a lady this week whose daughters had been starved. In Manchester. About 30mins from my home. So when they came to her, after being in different foster care homes, when they finally had a mummy- they would always need to be able to see food. They can’t have cupboards empty or hear someone […]

Handover to my Husband..

Today was the official handover, Loz handed in his notice in January and finished work yesterday. It felt pretty surreal, yet freeing at the same time! So today was the first day in which I was the one going out to work while he stayed home and looked after the kids. This hasn’t been a […]

“At least your face can pull it off”

I have been sat in a cafe all afternoon writing a course, looking at the stats of how many women struggle with beauty (Dove’s research claiming that only 4% of women globally would describe themselves as beautiful). How many women, instead of knowing they have value, have low- confidence and turn to self-harm and worse. […]

Streams in the wasteland..

Tonight I went to a prayer event with hundreds of other people from churches across Manchester. Greater Manchester Prayer Night. As we were in worship I saw a picture of a garden, a huge beautiful garden like Eden. But then throughout it were scattered wastelands, they looks dangerous and dark. From one patch of garden […]