Love what you have…

It’s 3am & we’ve been up for a while, there’s sick on my TShirt, my boobs hurt, my wound hurts and I just changed the third dirty nappy. You know what keeps resounding in my head & heart: “I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him.” 1Sam1.27 […]

‘Should-be’ Day

Today is a should-be day. A day where, how things are now, isn’t how we hoped they would be. You see, today is the due-date of a baby I would have loved to hold, not my own, but one I would have adored. The hope we have is that I will hold another, yet it […]

Handover to my Husband..

Today was the official handover, Loz handed in his notice in January and finished work yesterday. It felt pretty surreal, yet freeing at the same time! So today was the first day in which I was the one going out to work while he stayed home and looked after the kids. This hasn’t been a […]

International Women’s Day- for my daughter

Today is the first International Women’s Day where I have a daughter. I love this day and all the women from history and around us now who get highlighted. It’s made me think- which women inspire me. There are so many famous women I look up to over the years of history. Yet more than […]

2 0 1 7 Grateful (Top10)

At the end of 2017 I want to look back at all that I am thankful for this year. Just quick 10 points, to one day look back on! 1. F A M I L Y My family all live close by and this year have supported me through all the highs & lows. We […]

The most significant day…

Most days Facebook reminds me of something from years ago. Sometimes it’s a cute video or photo and I click on it to take a closer look, to remember and share it. Sometimes it’s a hideous reminder of bad outfit choices, or relationship choices, or just stuff that makes me CRINGE! Often, more often that […]

Belonging…

Today I was an astronaut, checking my colleague had correctly applied his helmet before BLAST OFF, then interrupted by two pirates wondering if I could be a ticking crocodile again. I declined as 10 minutes earlier I had been left alone on the pirate ship, in my pirate hat with hookhand and telescope, looking like […]

Waiting for the flowers to grow…

Three years ago I wrote a blogpost about depression and anxiety. I remember feeling at my lowest point, genuinely worried that I had lost myself and unsure I’d ever be ‘normal’ again. I was unable to speak to anyone except my mum and my husband. As I wrote ‘Elijah Rest‘ blogpost, my Nanan was on […]

Are we good?

“Is your heart right before God?”  This is the question I heard in the night-before waking in intense pain. I ran to the bathroom as the pain was so great I thought I was dying! Not just because I’m dramatic, I genuinely thought I’d heard this voice because something had gone very wrong within me […]

You are the best..

Little thought this morning. I am not very well so my Lion is looking after me. He’s worked hard on making me a tower. His speciality! When he brings it to me he walks steadily, holding it so carefully..with the proudest face on..tongue out. He declares “I made it. Tis for you mummy” It reminds […]