The valley of the shadow of death..

I took a pregnancy test, was amazed that it had two lines, came down and announced to Lawrence that he was to be a Daddy for the third time! We couldn’t believe it but were so excited, from that moment we were a family of five now! The next day we gathered my family in […]

‘Should-be’ Day

Today is a should-be day. A day where, how things are now, isn’t how we hoped they would be. You see, today is the due-date of a baby I would have loved to hold, not my own, but one I would have adored. The hope we have is that I will hold another, yet it […]

Poppy’s Pride 🦁

Just over a year ago I made a WhatsApp group, there are too many in the world, so I very much wanted it for one purpose & for people to not use it for more. I was about to have a baby. I wanted people to just pray when I went into labour and not […]

Streams in the wasteland..

Tonight I went to a prayer event with hundreds of other people from churches across Manchester. Greater Manchester Prayer Night. As we were in worship I saw a picture of a garden, a huge beautiful garden like Eden. But then throughout it were scattered wastelands, they looks dangerous and dark. From one patch of garden […]

International Women’s Day- for my daughter

Today is the first International Women’s Day where I have a daughter. I love this day and all the women from history and around us now who get highlighted. It’s made me think- which women inspire me. There are so many famous women I look up to over the years of history. Yet more than […]

When the glitter fades..

Sat in a cafe outside a hospital, waiting for the man that I love to undergo a procedure and hoping the results will be fine. I am sure he will be ok, less faith more denial that ‘another’ thing will begin to be a struggle now! We are in a good place after months of […]

2 0 1 7 Grateful (Top10)

At the end of 2017 I want to look back at all that I am thankful for this year. Just quick 10 points, to one day look back on! 1. F A M I L Y My family all live close by and this year have supported me through all the highs & lows. We […]

The most significant day…

Most days Facebook reminds me of something from years ago. Sometimes it’s a cute video or photo and I click on it to take a closer look, to remember and share it. Sometimes it’s a hideous reminder of bad outfit choices, or relationship choices, or just stuff that makes me CRINGE! Often, more often that […]

Giant-Slaying Time

There is something strangely warming about being awake at 2am feeding baby when there’s rain hitting the window. I love the sound and feel of the rain pattering all over the glass and hearing the wind blow the trees (tree, we have one on the road outside!). I’m not usually up at this time but […]

Breakin’ the ice..

It has been almost a year since I last wrote a blog post. It’s a year ago this month that my friend died and often I’ve written drafts but nothing felt right to post- death can do that I think. Throws things into perspective and makes it hard to get past. The longer I’ve gone […]