Get uncomfortable..

Last week I went to the funeral of the friend I blogged about a couple weeks ago. The funeral was unlike one I’ve ever been to. There was a wide range of people at it. Some were staff, governors of prison, church-folk she’d met along the way. Most were ex-offenders, mates from inside, from gangs […]

‘Nothing has changed’..

Sad, Angry, Desperate, Ashamed, Fearful, Broken, Overwhelmed, Hopeless…these are each words from a short scroll through my newsfeed. The emojis are 😢😞😱😤😪😭😫😡  I am sorry as today wasn’t what I voted, yet seeing these status’ made me start to wonder if I should be fearful, so I had to sit and pray. Amazingly my lion […]

He is Faithful

I don’t want to share this blogpost. I started writing it this morning when I felt more positive. When I was ‘high’ from a great evening at church (not how people normally get high, I know!). Then I paused it. Took my son and nephew to monday bible study/creche, all good. Then I lost my […]

Who are you fighting?

I can be a bit of a cow. I feel like often people either think I’m really nice or they think I’m a bit off. Hopefully people that know me find me somewhere in between, but I can certainly fly to either end of the scale! I’m working on it. And I don’t think it’s […]

Waiting for the flowers to grow…

Three years ago I wrote a blogpost about depression and anxiety. I remember feeling at my lowest point, genuinely worried that I had lost myself and unsure I’d ever be ‘normal’ again. I was unable to speak to anyone except my mum and my husband. As I wrote ‘Elijah Rest‘ blogpost, my Nanan was on […]

Mums..we need the Church!

I want my son to know who he is. I want him to grow up secure. To be a man of integrity who is known for his gentle, kind and compassionate heart, a man of character who is strong and loves justice. I hope and pray he has a passion for the least and the […]

Prostitution, Grace and Theatre: Les Mis!

In America, I had the amazing opportunity to watch Les Miserables on Broadway! Whaaaaat! I know! If you know the story you’ll get this post! Though even if you don’t I’ll help it make sense-there are some *spoilers* so you are warned! I just wanted to blog out a couple things it made me think. […]

We are Family…

I am writing this feeling rested and just in a good place. I’m taking note of that as I think I can often write out of sadness, confusion or tiredness so its a treat to write feeling…good! That is mainly thanks to my grandparents, they took my gorgeous 2yr old boy this weekend, our first night […]

Excited for normality ❤️

I’d like to take a moment in the middle of the mess To document how I feel, what I’m missing in the stress After three weeks in Burma off the plane straight to hospitals, doctors out & in I need to pause and recognise that I can’t wait for normal to begin I’m just looking […]

Out of my comfort zone..He makes me brave.

Last night (sunday night) I was a bit at the end of myself, sat basically in a carpark in the ridiculous heat with little Lion crying and irritable next to me. Everything got a bit much, I couldn’t analyse myself so I asked my husband to tell me how I was feeling-a dangerous thing to […]