The valley of the shadow of death..

I took a pregnancy test, was amazed that it had two lines, came down and announced to Lawrence that he was to be a Daddy for the third time! We couldn’t believe it but were so excited, from that moment we were a family of five now! The next day we gathered my family in […]

‘Should-be’ Day

Today is a should-be day. A day where, how things are now, isn’t how we hoped they would be. You see, today is the due-date of a baby I would have loved to hold, not my own, but one I would have adored. The hope we have is that I will hold another, yet it […]

“I’VE GROWN…”

This morning I rolled over to the little voice that wakes me up most mornings, there stood next to my bed was his gorgeous face with a beaming smile. “Mummy, it has happened, I really have grown” He can’t wait for the day that I will tilt my head up to see him. I told […]

Poppy’s Pride 🦁

Just over a year ago I made a WhatsApp group, there are too many in the world, so I very much wanted it for one purpose & for people to not use it for more. I was about to have a baby. I wanted people to just pray when I went into labour and not […]

Sat, trying not to cry…

I met a lady this week whose daughters had been starved. In Manchester. About 30mins from my home. So when they came to her, after being in different foster care homes, when they finally had a mummy- they would always need to be able to see food. They can’t have cupboards empty or hear someone […]

Handover to my Husband..

Today was the official handover, Loz handed in his notice in January and finished work yesterday. It felt pretty surreal, yet freeing at the same time! So today was the first day in which I was the one going out to work while he stayed home and looked after the kids. This hasn’t been a […]

International Women’s Day- for my daughter

Today is the first International Women’s Day where I have a daughter. I love this day and all the women from history and around us now who get highlighted. It’s made me think- which women inspire me. There are so many famous women I look up to over the years of history. Yet more than […]

When the glitter fades..

Sat in a cafe outside a hospital, waiting for the man that I love to undergo a procedure and hoping the results will be fine. I am sure he will be ok, less faith more denial that ‘another’ thing will begin to be a struggle now! We are in a good place after months of […]

2 0 1 7 Grateful (Top10)

At the end of 2017 I want to look back at all that I am thankful for this year. Just quick 10 points, to one day look back on! 1. F A M I L Y My family all live close by and this year have supported me through all the highs & lows. We […]

Joseph: Sharing Fatherhood with The Almighty

This Advent I have been obsessed with a new man. His name is Joseph, I have known about him for years-yet this year I keep thinking about him all the time! So last night, Christmas Eve at 1am I blurted down all I’d been pondering. This is a monologue style, so poets please don’t expect […]