Just sit silent then clap

Poppy has been asking to go out on her new Christmas present since 6am. Yesterday she got Wheelies and loves them. We took her out and tried to help her get used to them. Our conversation this morning made me laugh.. and then it’s made me think: Poppy: Ok, when I go on my wheelies […]

Love what you have…

It’s 3am & we’ve been up for a while, there’s sick on my TShirt, my boobs hurt, my wound hurts and I just changed the third dirty nappy. You know what keeps resounding in my head & heart: “I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him.” 1Sam1.27 […]

Walking through miscarriage.. again..

I walked into Lidl & suddenly the masks, the distance, the people, that before had brought me anxiety when shopping, now paled and seemed less huge. I felt like shouting out as I waited for ages in the queue “DO YOU KNOW WHAT I HAVE DONE THIS MORNING” That is the problem with grief, particularly […]

Handover to my Husband..

Today was the official handover, Loz handed in his notice in January and finished work yesterday. It felt pretty surreal, yet freeing at the same time! So today was the first day in which I was the one going out to work while he stayed home and looked after the kids. This hasn’t been a […]

Streams in the wasteland..

Tonight I went to a prayer event with hundreds of other people from churches across Manchester. Greater Manchester Prayer Night. As we were in worship I saw a picture of a garden, a huge beautiful garden like Eden. But then throughout it were scattered wastelands, they looks dangerous and dark. From one patch of garden […]

When the glitter fades..

Sat in a cafe outside a hospital, waiting for the man that I love to undergo a procedure and hoping the results will be fine. I am sure he will be ok, less faith more denial that ‘another’ thing will begin to be a struggle now! We are in a good place after months of […]

2 0 1 7 Grateful (Top10)

At the end of 2017 I want to look back at all that I am thankful for this year. Just quick 10 points, to one day look back on! 1. F A M I L Y My family all live close by and this year have supported me through all the highs & lows. We […]

The most significant day…

Most days Facebook reminds me of something from years ago. Sometimes it’s a cute video or photo and I click on it to take a closer look, to remember and share it. Sometimes it’s a hideous reminder of bad outfit choices, or relationship choices, or just stuff that makes me CRINGE! Often, more often that […]

One hard day..

I was back in hospital today. This time with my 2yr old poorly lion. I didn’t handle it as well as I’ve handled everything else!  When my husband, Loz, was sick, he’s had Dengue Fever, caught it in Burma via a stupid mosquito, I was strong. I was tight with God, didn’t lose my head, […]

Excited for normality ❤️

I’d like to take a moment in the middle of the mess To document how I feel, what I’m missing in the stress After three weeks in Burma off the plane straight to hospitals, doctors out & in I need to pause and recognise that I can’t wait for normal to begin I’m just looking […]