Feeling close to death..

Waiting in the airport lobby. We suddenly hear huge loud rain. Though as most places here have tin roofs it didn’t worry me much as rain sounds louder everywhere.  ‘It’ll probably be fine, doesn’t look like too much rain’ I told Lawrence. Just then, more rain fell, even harder and wind swept fast and crazy […]

‘The Middle’ Monologue (..grab a pillow)

God has spoken to me through many storms in life. While I was in a lot of pain, four months after marriage, my new husband having to dress me and do everything for me. God showed me His Kindness as I have shared in blogposts before. He gave me this nugget of Gold. I am […]

Through the struggle..

Though we struggle and fall and hurt and fail and try again and mess it up and cry and try again and see and risk and hurt and push through and cry for help and try again… We don’t go through it alone. There is one right next to us, capturing it all, never allowing […]

Hard Heart looking for Love ❤️

I’ve not posted for a while. I have a lot of ‘saved drafts’ as I have written a lot, just not stuff worth posting! I can’t be fake, I’m not great at small talky chitchat. That’s why I find the starts & ends of church a bit cringe! Oooh but grab a cuppa & sit […]

LOVED

There is no reason for me to love my son He’s done nothing for me I do it all- Change nappies, feed & clothe him. I cook and clean and do Yet something stirs within me.. Despite it looking all one way I provide, I care, I protect There is this feeling, a deep unchanging […]

I can’t see…

I am continually surprised by life’s hurdles..it often feels like one hurdle to jump over then another comes up so fast! Some people call these stages and trials in life ‘seasons’, yet in England our seasons are not so clear cut as Spring,Summer,Autumn,Winter! We can have all four seasons in one day. Today on one […]

We all need a table!

Growing up I lived in 6 different houses & so moved schools all around the country and had to get good at making friends! Then since moving to Manchester at 18yrs I have lived in another 4 houses and now am very happily settled in my house with my husband and baby boy! I am […]