‘Nothing has changed’..

Sad, Angry, Desperate, Ashamed, Fearful, Broken, Overwhelmed, Hopeless…these are each words from a short scroll through my newsfeed. The emojis are 😢😞😱😤😪😭😫😡  I am sorry as today wasn’t what I voted, yet seeing these status’ made me start to wonder if I should be fearful, so I had to sit and pray. Amazingly my lion […]

New word..Obedience

A few months ago my car did that annoying thing where the battery ran out, maybe because I didn’t shut the boot properly which left the light on for hours.. Anyway, a wonderful friend came and got it started for me. Then I had to drive around and around while the battery charged. As I […]

Belonging…

Today I was an astronaut, checking my colleague had correctly applied his helmet before BLAST OFF, then interrupted by two pirates wondering if I could be a ticking crocodile again. I declined as 10 minutes earlier I had been left alone on the pirate ship, in my pirate hat with hookhand and telescope, looking like […]

He is Faithful

I don’t want to share this blogpost. I started writing it this morning when I felt more positive. When I was ‘high’ from a great evening at church (not how people normally get high, I know!). Then I paused it. Took my son and nephew to monday bible study/creche, all good. Then I lost my […]

Who are you fighting?

I can be a bit of a cow. I feel like often people either think I’m really nice or they think I’m a bit off. Hopefully people that know me find me somewhere in between, but I can certainly fly to either end of the scale! I’m working on it. And I don’t think it’s […]

Pearls & Dreaming again..

Last night I stood in a room and it was actually what I would dream of seeing. I stood in beautiful worship as around the room, looking pretty, was different stations of Painting, Creative Writing (authors, lyric writers, poets, bloggers, journaling), Clay, Play&Create (Lego/duplo), Collage and Restore (a section to rest and have Jesus restore […]

Let him carry you..

I’m going into hospital on Wednesday as I’ve been unwell now for a couple months. I’m super fed-up of it and none of the options for what might be wrong are looking nice. Nobody wants to be unwell..obviously..and I’m a terrible patient, because I’m impatient! This week I started getting a couple more text messages […]

Waiting for the flowers to grow…

Three years ago I wrote a blogpost about depression and anxiety. I remember feeling at my lowest point, genuinely worried that I had lost myself and unsure I’d ever be ‘normal’ again. I was unable to speak to anyone except my mum and my husband. As I wrote ‘Elijah Rest‘ blogpost, my Nanan was on […]

Are we good?

“Is your heart right before God?”  This is the question I heard in the night-before waking in intense pain. I ran to the bathroom as the pain was so great I thought I was dying! Not just because I’m dramatic, I genuinely thought I’d heard this voice because something had gone very wrong within me […]

Mums..we need the Church!

I want my son to know who he is. I want him to grow up secure. To be a man of integrity who is known for his gentle, kind and compassionate heart, a man of character who is strong and loves justice. I hope and pray he has a passion for the least and the […]