The most significant day…

Most days Facebook reminds me of something from years ago. Sometimes it’s a cute video or photo and I click on it to take a closer look, to remember and share it. Sometimes it’s a hideous reminder of bad outfit choices, or relationship choices, or just stuff that makes me CRINGE! Often, more often that […]

Giant-Slaying Time

There is something strangely warming about being awake at 2am feeding baby when there’s rain hitting the window. I love the sound and feel of the rain pattering all over the glass and hearing the wind blow the trees (tree, we have one on the road outside!). I’m not usually up at this time but […]

I didn’t think I could say “Me Too”..but Me Too.

This week I had a very silly evening. My friend has bought a beautiful Mini Cooper convertible, so as Hurricane Ophelia hit Manchester, we decided to go for a drive around with the top-down listening to Spice Girls! After the often intense past few months of being very responsible and adjusting to a new-born, this […]

Breakin’ the ice..

It has been almost a year since I last wrote a blog post. It’s a year ago this month that my friend died and often I’ve written drafts but nothing felt right to post- death can do that I think. Throws things into perspective and makes it hard to get past. The longer I’ve gone […]

Get uncomfortable..

Last week I went to the funeral of the friend I blogged about a couple weeks ago. The funeral was unlike one I’ve ever been to. There was a wide range of people at it. Some were staff, governors of prison, church-folk she’d met along the way. Most were ex-offenders, mates from inside, from gangs […]

Always remember..

This morning my heart broke with the news that one of my girls has tragically died. I haven’t experienced true grief as an adult, of someone I loved. Today I felt it, and it hurts.  I worked with this beautiful girl for years. She was so kind hearted, yet if you saw her you’d probably […]

Atmosphere changer..

I was in a mood with my Mum. I can’t remember why (clearly not important) and we hadn’t chatted it out yet. So at dinner, with my husband,  Dad and grandparents all sat round-there was an atmosphere. I’ve always been told I’m an atmosphere changer. When I’m happy-you’ll know about it, sadly it really works […]

‘Nothing has changed’..

Sad, Angry, Desperate, Ashamed, Fearful, Broken, Overwhelmed, Hopeless…these are each words from a short scroll through my newsfeed. The emojis are 😒😞😱😀πŸ˜ͺ😭😫😑 Β I am sorry as today wasn’t what I voted, yet seeing these status’ made me start to wonder if I should be fearful, so I had to sit and pray. Amazingly my lion […]

New word..Obedience

A few months ago my car did that annoying thing where the battery ran out, maybe because I didn’t shut the boot properly which left the light on for hours.. Anyway, a wonderful friend came and got it started for me. Then I had to drive around and around while the battery charged. As I […]

Belonging…

Today I was an astronaut, checking my colleague had correctly applied his helmet before BLAST OFF, then interrupted by two pirates wondering if I could be a ticking crocodile again. I declined as 10 minutes earlier I had been left alone on the pirate ship, in my pirate hat with hookhand and telescope, looking like […]