Get uncomfortable..

Last week I went to the funeral of the friend I blogged about a couple weeks ago. The funeral was unlike one I’ve ever been to. There was a wide range of people at it. Some were staff, governors of prison, church-folk she’d met along the way. Most were ex-offenders, mates from inside, from gangs […]

Atmosphere changer..

I was in a mood with my Mum. I can’t remember why (clearly not important) and we hadn’t chatted it out yet. So at dinner, with my husband,  Dad and grandparents all sat round-there was an atmosphere. I’ve always been told I’m an atmosphere changer. When I’m happy-you’ll know about it, sadly it really works […]

‘Nothing has changed’..

Sad, Angry, Desperate, Ashamed, Fearful, Broken, Overwhelmed, Hopeless…these are each words from a short scroll through my newsfeed. The emojis are 😒😞😱😀πŸ˜ͺ😭😫😑 Β I am sorry as today wasn’t what I voted, yet seeing these status’ made me start to wonder if I should be fearful, so I had to sit and pray. Amazingly my lion […]

New word..Obedience

A few months ago my car did that annoying thing where the battery ran out, maybe because I didn’t shut the boot properly which left the light on for hours.. Anyway, a wonderful friend came and got it started for me. Then I had to drive around and around while the battery charged. As I […]

He is Faithful

I don’t want to share this blogpost. I started writing it this morning when I felt more positive. When I was ‘high’ from a great evening at church (not how people normally get high, I know!). Then I paused it. Took my son and nephew to monday bible study/creche, all good. Then I lost my […]

Waiting for the flowers to grow…

Three years ago I wrote a blogpost about depression and anxiety. I remember feeling at my lowest point, genuinely worried that I had lost myself and unsure I’d ever be ‘normal’ again. I was unable to speak to anyone except my mum and my husband. As I wrote ‘Elijah Rest‘ blogpost, my Nanan was on […]

Are we good?

“Is your heart right before God?”Β  This is the question I heard in the night-before waking in intense pain. I ran to the bathroom as the pain was so great I thought I was dying! Not just because I’m dramatic, I genuinely thought I’d heard this voice because something had gone very wrong within me […]

You are the best..

Little thought this morning. I am not very well so my Lion is looking after me. He’s worked hard on making me a tower. His speciality! When he brings it to me he walks steadily, holding it so carefully..with the proudest face on..tongue out. He declares “I made it. Tis for you mummy” It reminds […]

Faith is growing…

I feel like at the start of this year has been a real ‘new start’. I’ve never been into ‘new years’ and didn’t start the year making any resolutions or grand plans.  I did, however, ask for God to bless me. I asked for this year to be the year of Abundant Blessing. I wrote […]