There is a boy who will only jump from a height into a compleatly soft pit of foam, if I am in the pit. I don’t catch him, I don’t need to, the pit is literally the softest safest thing ever. Yet he will only jump if I am in it. I tried sitting on the edge and watching, urging him to jump, but then he won’t do it. He needs me to be in the there, eyes locked on his, with my arms out, telling him I am there and he is safe- jump!

He loves me completely, he heals me by the way he loves me, this boy. Nobody has ever loved me so much, because nobody has loved me and been fully dependant on me. Trusted me so fully. What a precious thing, to be the one he will jump for.

I feel reminded of the personal, realness, of God tonight. I learn more about Him through the Word and I love that. Sometimes it makes me laugh & I see a side to him I didn’t know before. I read this just now..

“John the Baptist came and did not eat bread or drink wine, and you say, ‘He has a demon in him.’ The Son of Man came eating and drinking, and you say, ‘Look at him! He eats too much and drinks too much wine, and he is a friend of tax collectors and sinners!’ But wisdom is proved to be right by what it does.” Luke 7.33

I like the idea that people thought he ate too much, drank too much & was hanging out with people nobody else would have hungout with. Doesn’t it make him sound so much more of a normal bloke that you’d have loved to be with, a man for other men to want to eat & drink with rather than the ‘glowing white halo’ Jesus is so often painted with! Yet there’s a depth to this ‘bloke’ because He carries wisdom, He does incredible things & speaks in a way we have never heard before.

This man is love. God is love. The trinity is love.

He wants to be trusted by me so deeply. That even in a seemingly easy/safe situation I don’t want to jump on my own. Even in the small things. I will only go into a space where He has his eyes locked on me, His arms out and He is cheering me on! He may not catch me but only if He doesn’t need to, He will be there though. If I choose to know Him, to spend time with Him, to be close.

Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. James 8

Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. John 15.4

I want to be close. So that I know He is there in the pit. I’m never alone. I never need to fear. I am loved well by Love Himself. Wisdom is in Him & I want the fruit of my life to reflect wisdom.

I’m teaching my boy so that one day he’ll be able to just run and jump and not need me there. I’ll be able to stand and watch. Yet that will grow, he will be able to do that as confidence builds and he sees he is safe. I want him to jump, I want him to be fearless, I want him to be strong. Love isn’t to imprison or keep small, it is to encourage and grow and empower and bring freedom!

That is the same with Gods love. If we are seeking Him then He will not hold us back and restrict the dreams we have – He wants us to have freedom and life to the full. He is there with arms out, eyes locked on you urging you to Jump!